Reflections

First of all, a new year post is in order since i haven't posted anything recently.

Happy new year to everyone who reads this.

Well, from what i know a couple of people, myself included aren't too happy at this start of 2009. And to pour some cold water on people who call a new year a new beginning, i have this line i said from ages ago that can be applied to birthdays too.

'Same shit, different day.'

So technically, if u were in some shit at the end of 2008, don't expect that to magically go away at the stroke of midnight as you welcome in 2009.

If anything of course a new year is always an occasion to celebrate with friends and family and other halves and i'm grateful i have my relatives and family to spend this time with.

Speaking about the 2008 that just went by in a flash, i decided to think about the events of 2008 while i was in the shower. To start with, it was definitely a roller coaster ride of emotions and feelings and would be a year to be remembered for many more to come. In retrospect, despite the downs of 2008, it was definitely a year of highs.

To start off the year, exchange in europe in Austria was definitely a high. Longest time away from home and honestly, i relished the new found freedom and the experience of living abroad in europe. Fell in and out of love, twice, and i've learnt a whole lot about love, and the lesson was fucking painful. Sometimes we are tempted to say our fate is all in our own hands and we can change the course of things if we just try hard enough, if we take matters into our own hands . True, we have the freedom as humans to do what we like but eventually, if something isnt meant to be, it never will no matter how hard you try.

I had to make a lot of difficult decisions in 2008, but looking back although things may not have worked out the way i wanted it to, i have no regrets making the choices that i did, no matter how difficult or foolish they may have been.

To the optimist, Happy new year, its a new beginning.

To the proverbial pessimist, Hang in there, shit happens. (but you know that already)

Someone owes me something from 2008, and i don't know if i'm ever going to get it and even if i do, i'm not sure i'm ready for it.