Magnificent

A strange title for a night like this. Its been a long time since i felt this way, paralyzed unable to think, only to look upwards and to pray. I'm pretty sure (almost) no one reads this blog since i've stopped posting for such a long time, just the way i like it.

Funny how life goes back in one big circle to the same old fears, but this time my response to look upwards is rehearsed, almost instinctive. Sometimes the hardest thing in life can be to let go. To let go of a situation, the lost of a loved one, and we fail to realize that we are limited beings prone to wander, to go astray, that we cannot control everything that happens to us. Even now, there is a gut wrenching feeling in the pits of my stomach. Its amazing the lengths God will go to speak to our hearts, when we have wandered so far, in a flash we are brought to our knees before him, because we run into the arms of perfect love.

As i was walking home, i realized that there is no perfect love, humanly speaking. But im glad that God's love for us, for me is perfect. Nothing i can do can make him love me more, nothing that i have done can make him close the door. After all these years, i know and i feel him right beside me. He binds up the broken-hearted and quells all my fears. I know that even if i were to be rejected by everyone, hes always ready to pick me up in his arms. Arms that created the heavens and the earth yet small enough to hold me closely in his presence.

I've done exactly as you've instructed, and i know all thats left is to let go and let God.